uncertainty

It's hard to show what you believe, to not just be caught up in the flow and go along with whatever. I have come to realize lately that I dont often carry conversations, is the subject is of a light manner, I'll tell a story about one of my past experiences that realates. if the conversation is more of a heavy manner, I listen, and ask questions, but dont really talk. so i guess sometimes I'll lead a conversation in a direction by the questions i ask... but thats not the same. I dont know, maybe its just the way I see it, but a whole lot of what i say is useless drivel, and i usually realize this while i'm saying something, instead of right before, which would be a lot better... I dont think I like me very much, I'm kinda lame... I should work on that.